sedih? ha'ah.
risau pun ada.
risau kalau terjadi pape on 2013 nie.
selepas 2012 melabuhkan tirai beberapa jam yg lepas.

aku tak tahu kenapa.
rasa sebak.
rasa hiba.
rasa macam kesedihan sedang menunggu aku dekat depan tu.

mungkin aku akan stress.
mungkin jugak aku tak boleh nak kawal emosi tu.
semalam je,
aku dah reply text haziq dengan perasaan bengang.
just sebab aku tengah pening kepala yang teramat sangat!
rasa macam selfish.
I hate when I act like that.

I just hope I can always cool down and be patient.
no matter what happen!
InsyaAllah.

I'll try to be better than before.



why I think that he is the right guy for me?
because there is something that the other guys can't do but he can!

what is that "something"?
keyyy, he can make me nervous!
as an examples,
when I want to make a phone call.
when I was watching his photos.
even, when I met him!
nervous gila! dup dap dup dap dup dap!
like I was running for "merentas desa".
hahaha!
it just everything about him can make me nervous.
yeaaa, seriously!

and ada lagi.
waktu conflict tu, baru aku sedar.
lelaki dalam dunia nie, yang berjaya buat aku menangis hanya dia!
selain abah and solehan.
that moment, I know that I can't lose him!
because I love him.
hahaha!

know what?
aku tak pernah jealous macam aku jealous time haziq "friendly" dlu..
serious kowt!
walaupun aku benci perasaan jealous tu,
tapi perasaan tu jugak sukar untuk dikikis even aku dah try sedaya upaya mental aku!
hahaha!
whatever~
aku gerun jugak dengan perasaan tu sebab dy boleh mengurangkan kepercayaan aku kpd haziq.
aku tak nak perkara macam tu terjadi.

hahaha! one more!
dy sorang je yang pernah buli aku tanpa aku sedar pulak tu!
kejam ohhh!
rasa macam nk bantai je~
sabar je lahh..
suatu hari nanti pasti akan terbalas jugak,
wahai Muhammad Haziq bin Muhammed Ariff! 

The most important is 
Mr. Owl'z tu je yang pernah buat aku "angau".
hahaha!
nasib baik aku boleh atasi lagi.
*peace no war*

keyyy, itu je yang aku dapat fikir sekarang nie.
chaw! chaw!
assalamualaikum!

keyy.. on 27/12/2012 (9pm or something)
me and mama are having our dinner at Pizza Hut Semenyih..
our conversation is about "us"..
us = Miss Owl'iz and Mr. Owl'z

mama : mak ayah haziq tau tak?
me : tau! hehe.. *sengih*
mama : *muka cuak* ha?!
me : mak ayah dy tau lah pasal kami.
mama : macam mna depa tau?
me : entah! *angkat bahu* *sengih*
mama : macam mna hang tau yg depa tau?
me : time calling dgn haziq, mak ayah dy pernah "menyampuk".. hehe.. *sengih*
mama : ha?! *muka cuak* malam-malam buta tu?
me : tak lah.. alaaaa.. ada la satu masa tu, dy tengah calling dgn syifa, ayah dy perasan..
mama : *aku dah lupa, sorry*
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mama : mak dy kerja apa?
me : cikgu dekat sekolah Afiqah and Akmal. Ustazah.
mama : *mata terbeliak* sekolah agama ka?
me : taklah! sekolah SKS lah.. berkawan dgn Cikgu Raja.. tp Cikgu Raja xtau pon pasal kami..
mama : ya ka dy taktau?
me : ya kot.. ustazah tu pon tau yg Akmal tu adik syifa.. *berdasarkan cerita haziq*
mama : dah tau? *nada terkejut*
me : *sengih*
mama : haish.. dah la adik hang pon dengan Ustazah, hang pon dengan Ustazah jugak..
me : *sengih* okey paaa..
mama : Ustazah nie ada banyak jenis, bla bla bla .. kalau ustazah akmal tu, mama dah kenal..
me : alaaaa.. cikgu jugak..
mama : ayah dy kerja apa?
me : entah! uruskan company sendiri kot.. syifa pon xtau!
mama : ouhhh.. *aku dah lupa*
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mama : mama cuma xmau hang frust mengonggeng ja..
me : InsyaAllah, tak..
mama : kalau lah.. hang berjaya survive sampai habis Form5, dy kena pi overseas..
me : ha! 7 tahun! dy ambil medic! *menyampuk*
mama : kalau lah.. dy jumpa "somebody" masa study dekat overseas tu, hang taktau.. hang tunggu ja dy dalam masa 7 tahun tu.. bila dy balik, dy cakap kita xdak jodoh.. lepastu, hang jadi andartu..
me : ermm.. syifa redha ja lah.. sebab tu la syifa belajaq! syifa pon nk pi overseas jugak!
mama : bila hang dah sayangkan seseorang tu sangat-sangat, hati hang akan rasa macam kena toreh-toreh dengan pisau. sbb tu ada pepatah melayu "pisau dalam sembilu".
me : hmm..
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and then the topic change about Solehan, Akmal and Afiqah.. 

but the conversation is not exactly like that.
maybe ada certain ayat yang ikut kefahaman aku je.

the longest conversation that I'd with mama about Mr.Owl'z.
before PMR, I'd never talk about him! coz I'm afraid that I might lose him.
but after that conflict, nama haziq telah diketahui by all my families.
mungkin sebab aku lebih yakin sekarang nie.
yakin bahawa he is the right guy for me! 
InsyaAllah. Aminn!



beb, what should I do?
aku ingatkan penyakit nie tak berjangkit.
Mr. Owl'z la kena penyakit nie dulu.
lepas tu kawan dy.
now, me?!
angau? angau? angau?
yea, I'd never been "angau" with anyone!
but suddenly, It was turn out like this!
a night without texting him.
make me feel soooooooooo missss.. misss... missss.. him!
argh! I am going nuts.

I wonder what is going to be when he's not with me.
because deep in my heart. 
he was the only name that I could find.

now, I've to learn to be patient.
learn to be a good girl.
learn to be a better person.
because someday, I want to be the best for our future.
the best afford that I've could make.

I know, there's a side of me that I have to fix.
I'll try my best to fix that! hehe.

but tonight.
you could never imagine how bad am I.
landing dekat katil pun boleh teringat text dari dy.
macam orang gila tau!
then, tetiba terbayang muka dy landing sebelah aku!
wow! lebih sudah~
start je jadi macam tu,
huhhhhhhhhhhh.. chill..
I can't be like this because I'm a girl, dude..

nasib baik aku tak pandang cermin..
entah-entah, boleh jadi macam haritu..
terbayang dy jalan sebelah aku!
pergh! parah~
time tu after "first" met..
hahahaha!
aku masih lagi "kanak-kanak" waktu tu..
even aku angau, bukannya aku perasan..

but now, I am on my way to sixteen!
I've to act matured. xP
hehe. *bajet matured*
padahal, time diri sendiri tengah excited pon xperasan!
haha!
Mr. Owl'z perasan bila time Miss Owl'iz nie excited..
wah! tahu aje mood org, kan?

haha! as you can see,
I am writing to much.
because I've been "angau".
*muka innocent* daaaaaaaaaaa~
haha!
keyy.. I've no idea what I'm going to write.

just, assalamualaikum!


hye .. hye .. hye .. *waving* 
assalamualaikum! ^,^
lately, Miss Owl'iz asyik kena makan ubat je.
hahaha!
this week maybe not my week because sickness always looking for me!
argh! I want to ran! xP
hewhewhew ..
thanks, Mr. Owl'z sebab "jaga" sy.
Jom kena kuarantin sama-sama!
hahaha!
gurau je ..
Mr. Owl'z jaga diri tau!
next week dah mula sekolah.
have fun! hahaha. dah taubat kan?
take care tau!
entah berapa kali lah aku nak taip camni daaa..
whatever~
aku sayang dy keyy! suka hati lah~
bla bla bla bla bla~
bukan ada sesape baca pon kan?
except Mr. Owl'z ..
huhuhu.
dah la mama cakap
"nak belajaq dengan haziq dekat UK tu kena kahwin dulu!"
nak tau tak apa riaksi aku?
O,o "yes!"
hahaha! spontan keyy~
tak boleh nk salahkan aku sebab time tu dekat kenduri kahwin.
aku dah la "takut" perkahwinan.
but I don't know why.
okey.
Mr. Owl'z dah tertidur lah tu.
tetiba tak reply mesej nie ..
hahaha! comel!




anything is possible, right?
so, let make this simple.
I'll gonna miss you!
hurm.
next week will be the end of school holidays.


as Mr. Owlz asked me all of this photo.
okey lahhh. I'll give it to him melalui blog nie. :)
gambar nie je yang ada.. xde lah banyak sangat.. XP



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